Should I partly blame myself?
Posted by: Alan in Sleep Apnea Treatment, tags: blame, Myself, partly, ShouldQuestion by ami_mtchll: Should I partly blame myself?
When I was 10 I was in a car crash and as a result my father is permanently disabled. He can walk with walking sticks but is unable to walk long distances and so round town for instance has to use a wheel chair.
The crash occured because my father has sleep apnea (though didn’t know at the time of the crash and thus fell asleep at the wheel).
At the time I was in the front seat and realised that our car was heading towards another and knew we would crash however I didn’t say anything, I just couldn’t think anything other than ‘we are going to crash’. I cannot remember anything after that point until the crash had happened and the car had stopped moving and so I believe I have repressed it as my mother said she can remember hearing my screams as the car span around.
My family don’t know that I knew we were going to crash and I can’t tell my family how I feel because I know that they won’t blame me but I still blame myself and I worry that they might in jest say that if only I had said about crashing at the time. All these years on we still don’t talk about what happened but I still think that if only I had said something then my dad would be ok as I later found out that my mum was persuading him to go to the doctors about his tiredness at the time.
I know it is silly to partly blame myself as I was only a child at the time and I don’t want to tell my family how I feel but inside I still wonder what would have happened if I had only shouted out.
Best answer:
Answer by daffygirl90
Hun I know you dont want to tell your family but you need to talk to someone about this. You are always going to fell this way until you do tell someone and let them help you through it. Telling the people on here is telling someone but it is not the same.
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